I love my mommy.

There is no way one can prepare for this.

My mommy, who has always been a rather small thin woman is down to 91 pounds; frail and gaunt. While she still has her hair at this time, it is thinning.

I just want to hold my mommy and take her pain away; heal her- but I have to be careful when I touch her- she is sore on her chest and her back from the radiation treatment...and she is so tiny I feel her little bones.

My mom was told last week by the Dr. that he was going to stop chemo. treatment on her for 2 weeks because she is so frail and her blood count is so low that the treatment would kill her in 3 weeks. He is trying to give her body time to heal.

I am taking my mom to the Dr. shortly (she insisted she make an appointment with her Dr. rather than going to emergency!) as the wound from the biopsy surgery has opened and is infected. This is the most painful, surreal thing I have ever seen (while my mom claims it is only a bit uncomfortable for her); there is an actual HOLE in my mothers chest, and the part surrounding it has become green and is leaking with infection.

I have cried myself to sleep these past two nights, and try to go to the other room when I feel I am getting too upset. I have to be strong for my mommy.

I love my mommy.

Please, keep sending loving, healing thoughts her way- I know she feels them.