Thursday, June 03, 2004

I am visiting my sister, nephew and Brother-in-law in Virginia. The visit has been good, even though the absence of my mother is profound. It is strange to walk into my mother's old room...the smell still the same, however my mother no longer occupying the space. My sister has boxed up a lot of my mother's nick-nack's, books and clothes to make the room into a guest-room. My sister and I go in there at least twice a day- just walk in, turn on the light- look around and smell my mother's old room. There is a sort of comfort being in the room- although the entire house feels of my mother's energy.
I grabbed on of my mother's gloves and sleep with it at night, holding it close to my heart.
Yesterday I went to visit friends and drive by my old houses. While hanging out with two of my closest friends, 3 dragonfly flew over our heads, circling us..then a lady bug landed on me. I feel that was my mom- letting us all know that she was with us and glad that we have eachother as supportive friends.
Tomorrow, me, my sister and brother-in-law travel to Ohio; where my mother was born, raised and buried. Saturday will be the first time we see my mother's grave with her headstone. I am anxious about it, but trying to think of it as a beautiful memorial for my beautiful mother.

I miss and love you mom.