I’ve been having a difficult time sleeping lately, and when I do it seems that all of my dreams are anxiety based and draining.
I love my mom and think healing thoughts for her throughout my day- and before I go to “sleep”. I try to envision my hand a healing tool, and I reach inside her body, grab hold of her lungs and the cancerous growth attached, and I massage them…as I do this, the tumor shrinks a little at a time.
After this massage, I hug my mom, rub her hair and sign off with our good night code- “night, sweet-dreams, I love you”, then I kiss her goodnight.

I have a Dr's appointment next week.

There are 3 things on my agenda.

1. I want to get a mammagram.
2. I want to discuss "the patch" or zyban options to assist with smoking cessation.
3. I want to find out what it is chemically that makes older people smell like older people.

Gephardt's Gay Daughter Joins Father's Campaign Promoting Homosexual Agenda and will be comming to The Center July 31, 2003.

I'm still not quite sure how I feel about this whole thing...

I spoke to my mom today. She is becoming depressed and it seems more and more afraid of her disease.
The radiation treatment she undergoes each day is depleting her energy level and is frightening. She spoke of attempting to locate a support group, so that she may be able to communicate with people going thru the same experience she is. I feel she knows the value in that, but it scares her at the same time. She mentioned people calling her to see how she’s doing, checking in with her, talking about how they have known someone with cancer and sympathizing with my mom. My mom gets even more frightened by the stories she hears.
I asked her if she would be interested in support groups online- if she would be willing to learn the computer in order to go into chat-rooms; she said yes. I could hear the fright and loneliness she feels…and the uncertainty of her future.

I pray and pray that the radiation and chemotherapy treatment she will start on August 5 work for her, and kill off the cancer in her body.
I pray my mom will be diagnosed cancer-free in three years.
I pray my mom will live for many, many, many years to come in a cancer-free, pain-free body.

Bush Shuns Calls to Legalize Gay Marriage
"I am mindful that we're all sinners and I caution those who may try to take a speck out of the neighbor's eye when they got a log in their own," the president said. "I think it is important for our society to respect each individual, to welcome those with good hearts."

"On the other hand, that does not mean that someone like me needs to compromise on the issue of marriage," he added.

....asshole....

This weekend, my girlfriend and I finally watched Children Underground. I had rented it a couple months ago, but knew it would be intense and returned it in order to watch it when I was “ready”.
One can never be ready for this film.

These kids only want what everyone wants and deserves in life; love, food and shelter.

I hope one day they get it.

I have recently found myself having trouble sleeping...and the song that goes thru my head (other than the Phil song) is this one.
I still own it.

Some freaked out person (and I do not use that term lightly) was yelling and screaming in my work today...the person at the front desk called security to the third floor. Next thing, I can hear more screaming in our lobby. I ran out to see what was going on and this guy has our door open and he's kicking the hell out of it. I'm thinking- shit- we just spent a large sum to get those doors fixed- now this person is going to break them again! Suddenly, the guy picks up this large ceramic pot (filled with plants) and lifts it over his head- then he turns to aim it at the front window...I yell at him to put it down- he throws it. HARD. Luckily, the glass was strong enough to withstand the force, and the ceramic pot explodes into pieces. Off runs the thrower and our security follows while our front desk staff calls the police.
The thrower has escaped and we are left with homeless plants...

Comon' Davis....SIGN IT!
Calif. Senate OKs transgender protections.