Thursday, August 28, 2003

I'm creating a list of things I have to do at work tomorrow. While some people have "to do" lists, mine is intitled "to start with".

I'm Still Waiting...

I feel so undervalued, underappreciated and unheard at my job. Of course not from those who need my assistance- me to grant them the space required for their event, possibly give them a "break" on rates, times, or whatever I can. I do have the power, and I use it often. I do not believe others realize exactly what I do- how my job is mathematical- playing Tetris- trying to line up events so that we bring in the most revenue- how I bargain and make deals with people.

I'm still waiting for my review.
1 year, 3 months.
Again, I just want a rate INCREASE- I don't even care about the review, but isn't a review supposed to be helpful? Isn't it supposed allow my Supervisor (who has NO idea what I do) to review me, make comments and tell me how much MORE they would like me to do? Wouldn't it be beneficial for them to document such things?

Some days I am PISSED and easily annoyed because I do not feel acknowledged- LOOK at what I do, damnit- there's only 7 of us who work here- HELLO?!- Do you see me??!!!

I feel that I need to know if I will receive an increase in salary. Isn't THIS a reason people move on from job to job- in order to advance? If I will not receive an increase, I want to know so that I may plan my future accordingly. I realize the economy sucks, but I make such little money that I hardly think my request for a little more will bankrupt this place. I know I would have to work 3.5 years to make the salary some bring in within 1 year. Gimmie at least 5k and I will be a happy smiling fool. That would bring me up to 38K a year- wow- big deal- I wonder how I survive in this city- and how come I'm not a lot thinner...

For August 28: Remain calm about upcoming events, meetings, and career issues. Marvelous things are about to unfold, and you must remain patient, considerate of others, and very, very focused. A lot is at stake right now, as you well know. Remaining calm and focused is easier said than done but essential to your success. You can only manage one thought, conversation, or deed at a time, so stop juggling. Watch your step and don't underestimate the amount of time it takes to finish one thing and start another. Force yourself to be conservative with time, money, and your energy expenditure. Sounds boring, but Rams need reminders right now to cultivate dignity and patience. Good things are heading your way. View the next three Mercury retro weeks as the perfect time to perfect plans, particularly if you're contemplating a move or job change. Luck is with you.

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

I met with a man yesterday about an "art of living" workshop he wants to hold here at The Center. The workshop is for HIV+ persons who are interested in an alternative to taking med's for their disease. He and I spoke about his experience and he explained that a year ago he was down to an extremely low weight and his health was suffering- until he attended an "art of living" workshop. He explained that the meditation and breathing exercises are extremely beneficial, however he stated to me that the most important aspect of this workshop, and of living with the disease, any disease (isn't life terminal) is to acknowledge it. To truly accept what is happening to your body, to own it and realize the whole picture- that life involves death, and that death is just another change in the cycle of life.
He told me that once he finally GOT that- truly accepted this, that his body started to recover.
He also told me that his Dr. STILL get's onto him because he does not want to be on med's. He stated that he continuously tells his Dr. that to him- life is about Quality of Living, and he would much rather feel good 90% of the time rather than 30%.
I feel this workshop is a valuable tool for all persons to learn about their body and it's limitations and that death should not be the biggest fear in life.

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Bush defends foreign policy initiatives in the face of criticism, pledges 'no retreat'

"We've adopted a new strategy for a new kind of war: We will not wait for known enemies to strike us again. We will strike them ... before they hit more of our cities and kill more of our citizens."

Weird…..sounds like terrorism to me.

I'm a lesbian...I don't like SNAKES.

Monday, August 25, 2003

Yesterday we went in and rocked out!!

It was great fun, and once again I was reminded that not only is it important to play music for's also important to the FANS!