During my wait to attend the Dyke rally, I conversed with to gay men friends of mine. They upset me so.
Why do men feel so exepmt- so special- like they are the "bells" of the party- always?
It makes no sense to me. I was not raised with this expectation of allowance. I was made to know my place- and where I was not welcome. Men apparently believe they are welcome everywhere...and if they are not- something is wrong with the people who think they are not.
I got that today.
I got a friend telling me I was mentally ill because of my views on women and men.
Odd.
I find myself more and more educated on this matter...
Why do men dislike things they are excluded from? Do they not realize we as women are excluded from many more things than them- simply due to sex?
The Dyke march is to support women everywhere- to support women in their everyday struggle for acceptance- do men understand this? I think not.
I have struggled my entire life for acceptance- every. single. day. and still not gotten it. They have no idea.
no idea.
and they feel excluded.
I say- fuck you dudes- look at your PRIDE celebration and how much larger that is than the dyke march- why don't you jack off to that- cause you made it bigger- makes you Proud, huh?
Men will never know the experience of women- expeically that of the dyke.
my life will always be trying to get by without some MAN being offended by me enough to try to hurt me because his girlfriend may find me more approchable then he.
Women fight for each breath of air.
while men think they are entitled to fill their lungs....

A photo of me and Christina taken from my phone...

I pray to the Universe...I pray to the Goddess...I pray to God. Again. Please help my brother in law's brother survive. Survive pain. Survive trama. He has a biopsy today, as they found a growth on his lung. I pray it will not be cancer.

He is in the same hospital my mother was in when she was treated for cancer side effects so many times.
And the same hospital.
Where my mom died.

I send good healing thoughts to him.

I saw my face Doctor today to discuss my skin condition. She said there is a blurred line between sun damage and Rosacea and said she was not sure I had Rosacea, but would offer me a prescription “treatment” to try for the next 6 weeks...
Limited sun for me between 10am-2pm from now on...

One year for Christmas, my mom gave me 100 dollars in stacks of 1 dollar bills with paper between the bills to make it look like even more. Honestly, when I opened the box and saw what was inside...for a moment...I thought my mom had robbed a bank!