but first...Venice....

a few more days....

3 days before I leave for my vacation, I am told of restructuring at my office which would directly affect my position. I've been stressing about what I should do- unemployment, or try the new job which include added physical labor of moving tables and chairs around for room set-up, 4 10 hour days which end at 10:30pm and dealing with the drug people who come to shoot up and sleep in the building. I think the timing of this sucks but of course, they don't run their business based on my life or needs; that is for sure. I have come to believe the most "adult" thing to do is to take the position for now- keep the income and healthcare and if I hate it or have problems with the physical demands of the job, to look for a new one. I understand it's a business plan and I'm not to take it personally, but that is difficult to do....Now I am so ready to get away for 3 weeks!

This is how I feel. Fractured. I know I have good things in my life but I feel tested...challenged by many things. Jesse has decided not to have any more cancer treatment and he has been given less than 3 months. My Uncle has heart problems. I am worried for my sister and my dad. I am worried for my own job. I am worried for our Country each day. I am fractured for a reason...and maybe many. I know I will be going on vacation shortly- but it leaves little comfort.

Christina and I recieved a letter from the Vatican informing us that we can attend a Mass given by the Pope in Rome on Sept. 21, 2005. We are very excited and hope we can get the Pope to Bless us!