I love my girlfriend..and perhaps I don't tell her enough how much I do.

She's very sweet to me, and buys me flowers all the time. Like today, she bought me some nice red ones (ummm that's my laymen terms..for I don't know the name of them...but they smell good).

I like them in my room..because I look at them and think of her.

Vegas Baby!

I love this movie so much I had to go out and buy it!
Finally a storyline I could relate too…I feel I’ve had all of the experiences shown in this movie..I think I've dated Jessica Stein a few times…and then by the end of the relationship turned into her.
Heather Juergensen is hot.

If you have not seen it, you should rent it and let it marinade with you.

My sister asked me to send her ideas for girfts I would like for that Christmas day.
I’ve been thinking about things that might come in handy.

Fake mustache
Binoculars
A camera with a telephoto lens (this should be no problem as my sister is a camera freak)
Minature tape recorder
Large suction cups that are strong enough to support up to 150 pounds.
Rope
Wrench
Lead pipe
Candlestick (what other board pieces were there in Clue?)

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Aries HOROSCOPE:

Weekend Update: Lovely waves of anticipation make Friday more fun than usual. Suddenly, a so-called unlikely (even impossible) event appears to materialize, giving you loads to look forward to. Allow your imagination to be your guide Friday. Your caring heroic side and generous spirit make you even more attractive to others. Later Friday evening, watch your step around temperamental, unpredictable types who are willing to do whatever it takes to control you. Saturday is excellent. Just make sure to periodically remind yourself what your objectives and priorities are, because others' demands and interests could dominate your time and attention. Although you may feel great compassion or concern for another, it may be wise to encourage him or her to be more proactive and less dependent. You have broad shoulders and are more than willing to help, but contributing to another's dependency isn't really helping. Cut the cord, Aries. Sunday's developing Full Moon is strong and powerful - and likely to impact your most important relationships. Your true power is embedded in your willingness to try hard - even when others give up. Neptune moves direct on Sunday, which removes one more obstacle or negative influence farther from your life.

I sent out letters requesting participation in a Community Economic Development focus group happening here at The Center.

One of the organizations I sent a letter to was TG Civil Rights Implementation Task Force. I did not have a contact name, and after looking at the list of individuals involved, I settled on a name I was familiar with.

I emailed her and she emailed me back.

I find her such an intriguing person.

My fortune for today:

“You will be called upon to help a friend in trouble”.

I purchased my tickets to go “home” to Virginia for Christmas. It cost me $389.00 round trip. I haven’t been back home in 3 years now, and I’m a little nervous about it. I love my family…but we are SO very different and at times (most) I don’t feel understood and accepted. It’s not only the gay issue that separates us, it’s our political and religious views as well. These are subjects I try to avoid when I’m there, but that is near impossible to do. Now with all the crap Bush has done and is doing, it will be even more difficult.
Including the days of flight I will be there for 6 days.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

My favorite San Francisco band, Fabulous Disaster is playing at the Eagle on October 24th (my band is playing there on Halloween). These girls KICK SERIOUS ASS!! I love them and try to promote them every change I get…and one chance I took looks like it “panned out”.
On my birthday this year, the woman who was the reason I first picked up drumsticks (she and Peter Criss) was playing at the now defunct KIMO’s. A one Sandy West who played drums in The Runaways. A few of my friends attended this show with me- and I thank you for enduring it. The cool thing is that I actually got a chance to meet one of my idols. I’ve been admiring and copying the drumming of this woman since I was 9, 25 years of admiration. Unfortunately, she proved to be epileptic or on speed. She actually scared me…but, she did remember it was my birthday and sang me the “you say it’s your birthday song”. I thought that was cool. At the show, I talked to the singer of Fabulous Disaster, about their tour schedule, and asked WHY the hell their drummer was not at the show that night. The singer replied that the drummer DID NOT KNOW who Sandy was.
Ummm…she’s only the women who paved the way for all other female drummers to pick up the sticks and be accepted. I tell you- kids these days know nothing of the history.
A few days later, I sent Sandy an email saying thanks and telling her how great she was, and what a thrill it was to see my idol on my birthday…and actually shake her very dry and callused hands. (ok, I left the last part out). I received a reply from her manager whom we met at the show. He and I started corresponding about Sandy and about events that were happening here in the city, and about some of the local bands- of course I ranted and raved about Fabulous Disaster to him. as he lives in SF also. We actually set a date to meet up, but could not find each other in the crowd. We’ve started corresponding again, and he mentioned that he was defiantly going to be at the Fabulous disaster show on the 24th.
I just took a look at the Fabulous Disaster web-site….guess who sat in with them on drums?!

Come to the Eagle Oct. 24th and support this kick ass band!

My girlfriend burned me a copy of Neil Halsted’s cd Sleeping On Roads. And she is right, it’s great.
Reminds me of cross between Nick Drake and Elliot Smith.

Aries Horoscope for week of October 17, 2002

Picture yourself carrying freshly cut orchids through wind-swept city streets. You're on your way to offer them as a gift to someone you adore. Imagine what it feels like to hold the delicate stems in your hand. Your grip must be firm enough to keep them from falling, yet gentle enough so that you don't crush them. Now and then, a stiff breeze threatens the blooms, moving you to pull them protectively towards your chest and raise your elbows to create a windbreak. The mood I just invoked, Aries, should be the spirit you bring to every one of your important experiences in the coming week.

I've been looking around on Craigslist for places to live. For me, and for my girlfriend. I am amazed at what some people say regarding the house situation. It's already established, and if you can not fit into what they want...they don't want you. What about some type of compromise? Dont people have to do that in order to live together..especially when you talk about more than three people. I mean, Hell, I compromise myself all the time for my (idiot) roomates...but maybe I'm dummer than they...
I just want to respond to most of the adds and say that my check is in the mail, but as requested, I will not be there, or ever show my face.
It's just that they can not afford the place themselves and they want a check each month..for example this blurb from one add I read:
"If you are an overworked person in a relationship and therefore remain largely invisible to your fellow-tenants, but are nonetheless famed for always putting down the rent on time, you're already in the running: come and talk to us".
Basically, give us money to pay for our rent..but don't even THINK you really live here.

It's a fucked up city we live in that we live together and just care about the others financial ability.
I admit, I'm in that situation...I don't care for my roomates, but cannot afford to go anywhere else...and I don't want to "fit into" someone elses home.

There's always something to complain about I suppose...
Like today, walking home from work at 7:30p.m. thinking..it's nice outside..cool..but nice...
Coming home to find the (idiot) roomates that do not work all day, felt it was cold and turned on the heat.

I don't work hard for the money to keep your ass warm and cozy at home all day!!

I saw the movie “Trapped” with Kevin Bacon and Courtney Love a few weeks ago. I thought it was a pretty good movie…suspenseful enough…and Courtney just freaks me out, she seems so crazy...like she'd just kick your ass because there's nothing else to do..so there’s added suspense right there.
Each time I see her I just think “poor Kurt”.
There is one scene that really sticks out in the movie. The scene where she is nearly drugged to death…lays there unable to move..Struggling to..but can’t because of the drug. She looks so strange…looks so vulnerable in those few moments. That’s a side I’ve never seen of her.

My girlfriend burned..umm…I mean Bought, yeah, BOUGHT me a copy of the newer Hole cd (never know who knows who you know…), and I think it ROCKS!

She may freak me out, but I still like her music.

Or is it Kurt’s….

My trip to Las Vegas:

It started out with the three girls across from us in row 14, loud and obnoxious, commenting on how Bush (the one in Office) sucks, and is demoralizing to women. We started out thinking it fun, and funny until they just would NOT calm down. They did say I was hot and proceeded to take our pictures. I suppose it would have been flattering if they were not so drunk. Now, there are three girls living in the city who know my face…I just hope I never run into them!
We arrived at 10:30p, and were picked up by Mark’s sister Lisa. We then went to the “gay” area of Vegas. This I find interesting, because it seems EVERY performer at the Casino is a fag!
We then went to Lisa’s, hung out talked and finally got Mark to bed at 5:00a.m.!
Sat. we went to Aunt Carol’s huge mansion of a house for a b.b.q. There, we met Phyllis, Mark and Lisa’s mom and Gene her boyfriend. It was great food, and great fun, but by this time I was feeling sleep deprivation.
Sat. night, we went by some of the Casino’s –MGM, New York, New York, , the Bellagio, the Aladdin (which there is NO escape…honest…all sidewalks lead to the Aladdin, and when you ask someone who works there how to get out, they say it’s a secret!), The Bellogio, then to Fairmont street for the old-school gambling and “the experience”. At about 12:30a.- (how do you ever find out what time it is??!!!) we went back to Lisa’s house. Finally, we fell asleep at 3:00a.m.
Sunday, up at 8:30a.m. to start our last day.
We went to Casino’s, looking for great décor –The Venetian, Mandalay Bay (for the Rum Jungle-yummy!!) and finally to Rio –unfortunately for us, the Voodoo Lounge was not open, but we had fun watching two of the shows. It makes me laugh that these women from the mid-west hoot and holler over these guys that perform at these shows…like- HELLO- what a fag he is!!
After Rio, we were off to the airport for our flight home.
This time, the only one screaming on the flight was a little baby whose ears were popping so much its little head probably felt like it would explode…and can you believe…the parents did not bring a bottle on the flight?
It was nice to get more than 5 hours of sleep last night!!